I really believe that it is never too late to find your ‘fabulous’. So here I am on a rainy Saturday reflecting on the experience that was part of my quest to find my ‘fabulous’. I am on my trusty computer reflecting greatly on what steps I made within my recent time in Thailand. I really had no expectations and allowed what needed to happen just happen.
I joined in with the theme as a guest of Phuket Cleanse. This meant no coffee, no alcohol, a plant-based diet, lots of exercise, meditation and breathing. I feel I live a pretty healthy existence, therefore I certainly did not expect to experience the onslaught of a deep detox. Becoming fabulous does not include giving a talk in the middle of a detox. It also doesn’t mean that you become invincible! Not only was I detoxing, I threw myself into as many activities as possible during the day. This included an early morning walk to watch the sun rise. I was by far the oldest and dare I say it, the least fit. A beautiful young thing, oozing fitness and vitality, helped me down the rugged track. Then I realised that I would have to make my way up again – thus I made a decision. About ¾ of the way I told her I couldn’t keep helping her like this, so would make my own way back as she pressed on.
Following a day of activities, I hurriedly showered and got ready for my talk. As a result of my frenetic day, the image in the mirror showed a swollen blotched face and severely blood shot eyes. As a consequence there are no photos or video of the talk. I was not my best self and felt quite ill. It was gratifying to be received by an enthusiastic audience of mainly young people who I felt were already ‘fabulous’ but assured me that theywanted to become even more ‘fabulous’. Hence I have been asked back and will ensure that I don’t make the same mistake again. It was a great experience because I was able to open up and speak from my heart.
As a consequence of my experience at Phuket Cleanse, another piece of my puzzle was put in place. I learnt something new every day. The icing on the cake was experiencing two re-birthing sessions with the very talented Della. A remarkable procedure found me completely eradicating the programming of ‘not good enough’ that was implanted in me from a young age. I am writing the experience in full detail in my book. I know the lessons I am learning so late in life are helping me to help others in a more productive way. As a result of experiencing things that I may once have found hard to understand, I am reaping the benefits. Because I have opened myself up to a different way of being, I am approached by people I have never met and feel so privileged to successfully work with them. If I want to help others to find their ‘fabulous’, I first have to find my own.
A new project
My belief in my abilities has changed and as a result, I am now going to be working with a huge project that I could not have foreseen six months ago. I am to work closely with two remarkable women, Josephine Cashman and Marcia Langton and their team of directors on the Big River Foundation project. These incredibly brilliant women are opening my eyes to knowledge not always available. Consequently I have a better understanding of concepts such as lateral violence and how it impacts on those who are working their guts out to make a difference.
I am so excited to be partnering in some components of this project. Whilst I have worked on Indigenous projects before, the scope of this one is so mind boggling and the implications so significant, it has been a challenge to get my head around it all. We have no illusions that it is going to be a walk in the park. For this reason I need to garner my inner strength because I know I am stepping more and more into my purpose. At last I am finding my ‘fabulous’ and as a result more able to be more productive for others.